Mountain Dew Slushies

Why do I continuously do this?....I drink caffeine late at night with the intention of staying up a bit later than usual to either get a little work done or "catch up" on some television I've missed and the clock passes 2AM, 3AM, 4AM, and I'm still wide awake. Left alone with the inner workings of my brain, I am kept awake for much longer than I originally intended.

At a certain point a man wants to sleep and yet here I am....2:48AM and I could stay up all night if I wanted to. Writing, watching television, drawing, whatever the crap my mind thinks would be productive at this point. The average start time of my past 7 journal entries hovers around 1:45AM, the earliest being 12:30AM and the latest being 4:10AM.

My original plan for tonight was to have a little caffeine and catch up on the newest season of Mad Men then slowly wind down and fall asleep at a semi-reasonable time and wake up early-ish tomorrow and turn all the blank t-shirts I own into original "Nate Seaman works of art". Yeah....that's not gonna happen. I have watched 3 and a half hours total and still not a yawn or heavy eye to show for it which makes me wonder: How many other people stay up this late merely for the sake of staying up late? I wonder how many people on our cul-de-sac are awake right now and what they're thinking about.

If they look out their window and see my room lit and think the same thing I do. I tried to see if anyone is awake on Facebook but I've left chat off for so long now that I honestly don't even remember how to initiate a conversation or even contact my fellow night owls.

I remember hearing a comedian, Mike Birbiglia, talk about how he suffered from years of sleep apnea, irregular dreams, sleep walking, and a general lack of rest and I can't bare the thought of it. While I was at school was probably the least amount of sleep I've ever had. Not to mention all the nights I went to bed with such high blood pressure I'm surprised I woke up the next morning (shout-out to my ex-roommate's crazy bitch girlfriend what what!).

Luckily my girlfriend is not crazy though. She refers to people who stay up really late as "cool people" and insists that every time she stays up past 11PM, she is classified as a "cool person" too....yeah. I guess she's pretty cool \m/

-N8